TTC as a surrogate is so much more emotional because this isn't just about me and my husband like with our own kids. This is about a whole other family who deserve a baby!
The desire for me to give them this baby is stronger than it was for my own. Of course I wanted my chidlren when I wanted them, but I guess because it was easy for me and my husband (our 1st took 3 months, our 2nd one try), it's just different! I knew with our own children we had the chance to conceive whenever the moment struck us and when we knew the timing was right. I could say I'm fertile this week, and we would make sure to be intimate several times that week to make sure we covered all our bases.
As a tradition surrogate (TS) it has to be planned weeks ahead. We can't just do an insemination as soon as I know I'm fertile. It's more complicated.
I knew this could take a few months to work, I just didn't realize how emotional I'd be over it.
I want to help this family so much, but I'm having a hard time being patient about it!
On to the next cycle.
My ovulation prediction is Christmas!